Summer is officially here for me!!! While everyone else got out of school on Friday, as a teacher I had to go back for one more day today. Of course that didn’t keep me from pretending I was already in summer mode over the weekend with a day at the lake AND a day at the beach.
I set a handful of goals for myself for this summer. One of those was to get back to writing. So…I suppose that means I’m now supposed to be writing. I’ve thought several times about getting on here. Every time there’s this voice in my head that says, “Um…no one cares what you have to say.”
I read recently that not everyone has a non-stop voice in their heads. Some people’s voices are much more discerning about what they say. That BLEW MY MIND! The voice in my head is literally NON-STOP!!! Like seriously every single thought I have the voice in my head has an opinion or a comment on. You don’t all have that little friendly (or sometimes not so friendly) voice commenting on every thought you have?
Sometimes the voice in my head is very helpful. It keeps me from saying things I shouldn’t say. It helps me sort things out. It reminds me of things I might forget otherwise. Sometimes the voice in my head is not so nice. It says things like, “Who cares what you think?” and “No one wants you to be here” and “You aren’t good enough.”
This time that voice has been telling me not to write. Yet, here I am writing. Maybe more babbling? I want to be stronger than the negative voice and I want to listen closely to the positive voice.
I don’t really have anything specific to talk about tonight. I am interested in what some of you might like to hear about from me in the future.
Today was a long day. I closed up my classroom for the summer. For some reason it was a longer and more difficult ordeal than in years past, but it is done now. Three really special and loved co-workers are moving on to something else and I’m very sad to be losing the daily relationship with these friends. My school will not at all be the same with out these three…once again recalculating.
recalculating 